I have a lot more faith in failure than I do in God. I am very afraid of failing. I am very afraid of not being “perfect”. Ultimately, this means I have a lot more faith in my fears and insecurities than I do in my God.
Perfect love is casting out fear
And I will fear no evil
For my God is with me
And if my God is with me
Whom then (or what then) shall I fear?
(Matt Redman)
God is perfect love. Why am I so afraid? Sometimes I get scared of the dark, that’s so silly. I have more faith that “something in the dark” will hurt me than faith in God protecting me. Why?
Trust issues. He’s funny. He keeps teaching me that. I think I’m probably in a life-long pursuit of trust though. I don’t even trust my own self sometimes! Although, the Creator of me and the Universe should probably come way before trusting my own self or trusting other people. I forget to put Him there most of the time. “In our world, where hundreds of things distract us from God, we have to intentionally and consistently remind ourselves of Him.” – Francis Chan, Crazy Love, Ch. 1
To the reader: Do you, and if so, how do you consistently remind yourself of Him?
If I could sum up every problem I have ever had in my life into one sentence it would be the first one in your post. We are pathetic, and he STILL LOVES US!!! How crazy is that?
ReplyDeletei look up at the sky. down at the ground. across the horizon. into my text book. into someone's eyes. at the details of my hand. at the complexity of a whole person.
ReplyDeleteGOD IS EVERYWHERE! HIS CREATION SPEAKS SO LOUDLY, WE ONLY NEED OBSERVE AND LISTEN.
Honestly, this isn't ALWAYS how i see the world. But when i do, i think of God immediately. The pressure of pre-med-ness can consume us if we let it, but i refuse to be driven by such a social pressure. I follow God, a source of hope and future beyond this lifetime. We cannot refuse His ultimate gift. Salvation from this world, from ourselves and then we can draw near to Him amidst our turmoil. His arms are open. He dearly loves US...!
Right on, Ashley! I think I remind myself of Him by offering praise and thanks to Him throughout my day--and talking about Him to my daughter Caroline.
ReplyDeleteIt helps me to keep Him in my thoughts.