Lay it at His feet

Have you let anything get between you and God?

I have. I tend to let petty problems get in the way. I tend to let fear overrule my life. I tend to cling to people or things or ideas rather than God. I tend to chase after everything else possible before I chase after God.

I tend to run away from Him. I tend to turn away. I tend to run off with “other lovers”. I basically say “God, you’re not worth my time, my effort, my love”. Eventually, I get bored with these other loves, these idols. They cannot fulfill me. I run back to God.

He must get tired of this, this constant drifting…running…away. The constant back-and-forth. I don’t understand why He would accept me back. The parable of the prodigal son gives me hope. The father accepted his son back with open arms (Luke 15:11-31). I think God is even more willing to accept us back.

I think it hurts God when we run away, but I never think of that when I’m trying to hide or when I’m chasing after other things. I don’t ever realize the magnitude of what exactly I have done. This is something I want my heart to break for. I want my heart to break when I realize I have run away, when I realize that I haven’t been faithful, when I realize what that does to God (“Open our eyes to the things that make Your heart cry”). I want to repent. I want to say “God, I know that I have messed up. Please, take me back”. I guess this is what I’m saying right now as I sit here reflecting on the past few weeks.

God called me out with some words spoken during homegroup last night and a simple verse posted on facebook later, Jonah 2:8, “Those who cling to worthless idols reject God’s love for them”. I cling to idols often, I reject His love regularly.

I always say I have a hard time believing God loves me. I think it is something I KNOW, but don’t UNDERSTAND. I think it’s something I don’t know how to “feel”. Though it is something I have “seen”, to a degree. I tend to believe the lies though – God doesn’t love you, God doesn’t care about you, God doesn’t want you to come back. That is NOT true though. God is waiting. Angels will rejoice. Angels are rejoicing. (Luke 15:10)

I’m stopping here, throwing out the idols, and running toward God.

"Teach me, LORD, the way of your decrees,
that I may follow it to the end.
Give me understanding, so that I may keep your law
and obey it with all my heart.
Direct me in the path of your commands,
for there I find delight.
Turn my heart toward your statutes
and not toward selfish gain.
Turn my eyes away from worthless things;
preserve my life according to your word"
Psalm 119:33-37

"Break down our pride
And all the walls we’ve built up inside
Our earthly crowns and all our desires
We lay at Your feet
With everything, with everything, we will shout for your glory!"

Are you giving everything to God?

(Song Reference: With Everything by Hillsong)